Rainy days.

Looked out the window one day and found peace and serenity from seeing a rainbow on a rainy day. I love rainy days~

"People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway. If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway. What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today will often be forgotten. Do good anyway. Give the best you have and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway. In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

Dreams are endless.

There is one month to go till graduation, three more months till I visit new york&cali, and four more months till I say goodbyee to this island! I really can not wait and its the only thing keeping me focused and busy with school.
Lately I have been feeling that I have lived up my stay in Hawaii. Nothing is keeping me here and I have nothing to gain. I just want to run, and keep on running. The road for me is wide and open. I know that the possibilities would be endless out there. My possibilities are limitless. As long as I keep on dreaming and following my heart.

"The secret isn't to find someone you love spending time with - I love spending time with a lot of people. The secret isn't to find someone that you find attractive - I find a lot of people attractive for many different reasons. The secret isn't to find someone who is nice - there are tons of nice people in the world. The secret is to find someone who wants exactly what you want. Someone who is ready to give you all they've got, and in turn they are ready to accept all the love you have to give. The world is filled with people in relationship teeter-totters of "loves you more" & "I have to act mean so they will like me back" or "I am just not ready". Please do not waste any more of your precious time. You are an amazing creature. You deserve to be loved until your insides melt. Don't give up on all the things you want. When you meet the right person you will have zero doubt in your mind. Zero." Remember that, and I'm sorry.

The Cove.

Happy Birthday my brother, Alvin! :D
"You are only as happy as you make yourself to be. Happiness comes within you."
I recently watched the movie, The Cove, and it has given me new thoughts and insight on a lot of things. One thing is that I want to make a difference in this world. This world has too many things wrong with it which is one of the reasons why I have trouble trusting people. Nowadays I don't talk about my feelings or my thoughts. On the other hand, I believe people quite easily and am quite agreeable which makes me an easy target to take advantage of. Lately I have been quite wary of people and have tried to keep my distance with a some of them. Men especially. The more I get to know and talk to guys, the more I just have lost faith in them and men in general. But just as I have given up hope on them, there are certain guys that have changed my mind. Some of my guy friends have changed my mind for the worse but others have given me hope that their gender isn't a lost cause. After watching The Cove, I became aggravated. Just the thought of people killing and harming animals angers me. If people harm animals, what prevents them from harming other humans? The movie, The Cove, just changed my views on humans more. I couldn't believe that there were people like that out there. I just want to make a change and a difference in this world. No matter if its big or small, I want to help this world be a better place. That is one of my goals._____
Oh and the 2 men in my above pic are some guys that have given me hope. I love blogging because it gives me a chance to say whatever I want and I feel more comfortable putting my thoughts in a blog.
|"Be the change you want to see in the world." Mahatma Gandhi|

A new year with new beginnings :D

"All of life is a journey which paths we take, what we look back on, and what we look forward to is up to us. We determine our destination, what kind of a road we will take to get there and how happy we are when we get there."
It's a new year and about time to gather all my thoughts together and try to form them into something that will make sense. Lately I have been feeling really unsure of things and losing trust in people, especially guys. I think its because I have reached the age where I am unsure of what is going to happen in my life. One thing that I am sure of is that I don't belong in hawaii. I do love it since its the place that I grew up, all my friends and family are here but I don't belong here. Staying here will have no gains for me. I wouldn't grow as a person and will just be stuck in one place, trapped. Right now I am excited to be graduating soon and then leaving this place to start on a new journey. Hopefully a journey where I will figure out what to do and where I will feel more comfortable being. Another thing is that I am losing trust and faith in people. I was always happy meeting new people but lately I have been feeling that a lot of people that I meet aren't good people. Especially the guys I have been meeting. Girls are better since they don't expect anything out of the meetings. I don't know, I just have a different view of people and I'm not judging everyone out of the few guys that I have met. But it just opens my eyes to how I previously have viewed them as. So to end this on a happy note, I am excited of what's to come in my future. Not letting anyone getting in my way and keeping my focus on what's to come.
___"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours, it is an amazing journey, and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." -Bob Moawad

EDITS.
I realize that I have a hard time trusting people now and I blame you for this.

Happiness = good food+friends<3

"A friend is somebody you want to be around when you feel like being by yourself." -Barbara Burrow

<3 I love all my friends but there have been those few people that have always been there even when I felt like being alone. They made the effort to be there. I already lost one person. [if there was a friend that I wish that is with me now is you, yaya, but I know that we are still friends] and for the rest of the few people that have been there unconditionally and supportive, [you know who you are], I love you guys to death and want to thankyou for everything. Never forget that I will always do the same for you. True friends are hard to find. Throughout life I have learned to befriend all but trust less and to always enjoy life lovelaughlive. Life is too short to be angry and to pick stupid fights. As I thought through things I realized that I was never mad but I felt sorry for you. I can't say that I have ever lost a friend because if a friendship is capable of ending then we weren't really friends to begin with.____

Lean on me

Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's
Always tomorrow

Lean on me
When your not strong
I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long till i'm gonna need
somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you won't let show

You just call on me brother
When you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me
When your not strong
I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till i'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

You just call on me brother
When you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem
That you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load
That you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

Call me, call me, call me
Call me, call me, call me
Call me, if you need a friend
Call me, call me, call me , call me
Call me, call me, call me
ooooooooooooooooo

Lean on me
When your not strong
And i'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till i'm gonna need somebody
Somebody to lean on

Lean on, lean on me (come and lean on me)
Lean on, lean on me (come and lean on me)
Lean on, lean on me (if you need a friend)
Lean on, lean on me (call me)

__Lean on me Michael Bolton

Faraken Paanshii!

DGC- Most awesome posse ever :D

I'm sorry, I never knew that I had something that good, I always look beyond what I have.

____Now I know all the good things I have and I'm not going to let go; Everything happens for a reason.


edits. I found my future home! man this place is so cooool~ http://thepaddubai.com/
October 25, 2008 I got my new gekko phone, finally :D